Throne of the Prince

I'm striving to achieve my former glory. I really don't know what to put down in words, but i'm sure of my actions. Some things in life doesn't need much explanation and all this are just spontaneous thoughts running through. Everyone has a tale to tell, and through this journey, I've met very interesting people , and some rotten ones that spook around their speech. Today I've met a kin, the philosopher. It felt like mental intercourse. But in some sense, it was rape. The philosopher really reminded me of many things of myself in the past, and left me awe-struck.

I know what I have to do and I know where it will lead me. I've always analyze my actions but I miss out some key elements and finding myself taking it back. You can be driven but is that really you? I'm out on that run to find out. I'm struck on every cord.

I hope you hear from my best friends on my ideals and thoughts on this. Although sometimes I'm not sure it was necessary to say all this. I know that I will find comfort in whatever they have to say on this. I really want to hear from Deb. She'll tell me things that comforts me. I'm out in this world to Live by your own Light and Shine by your own Star.

And from CK. How even though we are so busy with our things, he still have his way to show his concerns. " Follow your heart," he would say. Something that I could easily said to myself, but it has to come from someone who cared like him, to give this wake up call.

I guess this would be a good time to mention about some other friends that unravel out of the unclear. Kim for you to ever show your over enthusiasm in my personal life. She always reminds me how fucked up this world is and still has the air about it that everything will be fine eventually. These people has exemplified the true friendship and life changing lessons. Friendship ain't objective.

All this has reminded me, what changed me in the first place. It was genuine kindness. I driven me to think what I really wanted in the first place. I want to change the world for them. Closer to reality, I might pull it off by changing lives instead of the world. It's so much more personal and rewarding.

Mong Yen really spells things right and put some fire in the belly for me today. I'm motivated and inspired.I'm impress with the level of integrity. What you truly want in life? Or are we all masked behind it all. You really made it clear of in your own way, your philosophy. Stay true to your principles. Highly opinionated.
Many could have be drawn to you by benefits possessed by you and shone away those who had less. Benefits such as material , personality tracing, the FUN-factor(being around people that are happening).
Some people might be close to others to learn things and be self absorbed in the whole experience frenzy. Hey this ain't a game, don't kill for experience. It's life.

I've so many to say, but I can't put it clearly in words. Maybe that's just what's being male all about. Lesser intellectuality in words. Speaking of which reminds me of Hui Mei how she have her good play with words still leaves me truly mused.HAH. Many of us used and are used back, in some cases- strong friendship are spawned.

All this talking also leads me to be reminded of the mental masturbating( sorry it's 430am and i cant think of a better objective excuse) Teck Houng that fills me with good thoughts.Keep it up with your good writing, and pay me endorsement fees for praising you like hell. Back to what I was initially saying.

Everytime I speak of best friends. Hilda always seems to be not in the family portrait anymore. Gaining back the friendship I once hold so true, but people grow out of friendship sometimes. I will always remember her. I really want to reach out to speak to her. But I don't regret having less initiative in putting effort into it, in life there's no time to regret. We cherished and laugh and we cried. It was happy. Always will be in my memory as one of the greatest.

And of course not to forget the enormous emotional support from Arina, at times it seems so dark, you've shown the light. I'm ever grateful. Overwhelming support although sometimes kept silent in fear of causing disturbance. I welcome disturbance. Send it those smses and calls and don't be afraid to show it. Cos it matters to me. You are important to me.

I just want to express to these people that they really molded and shaped me. I want to tell the world. "Remember your friends." Everyone deserves friendship. Have a heart for another.