Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Quater-life Crisis

A previous reflection of mine

The Quater-life Crisis :

They call it the" Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold,catty,mean or sincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your studies/career/job and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and
further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you layin bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone
decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because
you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about money, the world, the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
sigh...

YOU ARE NOT ALONE....

1 comment:

Melissa said...

some people embrace change :)
And......if you at least *TRY* live life to the full then even if you are disappointed, you'll at least know you tried, and then you may evaluate if the effort was worth it or not!!!

yay