He watches me intently, hoping that i say the words. He posed me with the question.
"Eeeleee... You're gay right? hehe (<- to lessen the tension)."
His eyes burned with desire, eager for me to say the words.
The sudden mention of gay bars or mere teasing excites him.
It's been months now, almost a year he persisted.
"Sorry, but i'm straight."
Friday, April 29, 2005
Thursday, April 28, 2005
To Mel
Happy 19th birthday to you.
You're 19 , your last year before hitting the big 20's.
I guess age spells out these: experience, insight, depth and thought.
Most peers i come across still lingers around and not thinking their mental age. It's still about how your backside looks in those jeans or that shoe sale at your towntown mall or even parting your lips while using that lipstick.
I remember whenever my friends reach the age of 18, i'll punch them in the shoulder, saying " This is the Rite of Passage into Adulthood", that pain you feel is realism. After you're 18, i don't mind if that blow sends you to your new astonishing sex life or guide you in the right path. But just remember, never settle for mediocrity and live life to the fullest.
By the time you know it, you've hit The Quarter Life Crisis.
You're 19 , your last year before hitting the big 20's.
I guess age spells out these: experience, insight, depth and thought.
Most peers i come across still lingers around and not thinking their mental age. It's still about how your backside looks in those jeans or that shoe sale at your towntown mall or even parting your lips while using that lipstick.
I remember whenever my friends reach the age of 18, i'll punch them in the shoulder, saying " This is the Rite of Passage into Adulthood", that pain you feel is realism. After you're 18, i don't mind if that blow sends you to your new astonishing sex life or guide you in the right path. But just remember, never settle for mediocrity and live life to the fullest.
By the time you know it, you've hit The Quarter Life Crisis.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
How would you want to be remembered?
Once we're born, we start dying.
Our innocence robbed, crushed and broken.
Our realities sinks in, our youth forgotten.
Our skin gets drier and drier until it becomes crinkly.
Our eyesight gets dimmer and dimmer till we require LASIK eye surgery.
Our hair starts to fall out. And our bones start to brittle.
It takes some average seventy years before we reach "Withering Heights".
Dying is just a long drawn out process.
Most people choose family and babies. Achieving that dream career. Writing a book. Finding spiritual solace. Abundance in wealth. And even shooting a film.
Just to feel complete in their lifetime.
Tombstones and epitaphs often provide us with mere templates:
" Loving person" or "Caring Husband/Wife" that doesn't distinguish us from anyone else.
We can't possibly be remembered that way. Unless we build ourselves monuments or statues.
We strive for things that we can't achieve: Being billionaires, loving parents whom our kids look up to, flicker of happiness.
It is the sudden realisation that our lives don't make any sense.
Happiness don't last. Our money goes to taxes for meaningless JKR beautifications, the young generation swear back at us.
We should be spending time with loved ones, planning how best to leave our mark. We should enjoy the company of our friends while we're in our prime. Friends and family.
I just want people to remember me as the guy with the smirk ,highly spirited in believing that all things are achievable.
" It's alright, everything is great."
Modest but achievable.
So how would you like to be remembered?
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Read also :
Dodo
Our innocence robbed, crushed and broken.
Our realities sinks in, our youth forgotten.
Our skin gets drier and drier until it becomes crinkly.
Our eyesight gets dimmer and dimmer till we require LASIK eye surgery.
Our hair starts to fall out. And our bones start to brittle.
It takes some average seventy years before we reach "Withering Heights".
Dying is just a long drawn out process.
Most people choose family and babies. Achieving that dream career. Writing a book. Finding spiritual solace. Abundance in wealth. And even shooting a film.
Just to feel complete in their lifetime.
Tombstones and epitaphs often provide us with mere templates:
" Loving person" or "Caring Husband/Wife" that doesn't distinguish us from anyone else.
We can't possibly be remembered that way. Unless we build ourselves monuments or statues.
We strive for things that we can't achieve: Being billionaires, loving parents whom our kids look up to, flicker of happiness.
It is the sudden realisation that our lives don't make any sense.
Happiness don't last. Our money goes to taxes for meaningless JKR beautifications, the young generation swear back at us.
We should be spending time with loved ones, planning how best to leave our mark. We should enjoy the company of our friends while we're in our prime. Friends and family.
I just want people to remember me as the guy with the smirk ,highly spirited in believing that all things are achievable.
" It's alright, everything is great."
Modest but achievable.
So how would you like to be remembered?
-----
Read also :
Dodo
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Opinion Hated
I've observed recently.
-Contentless and graphical interfaced blogs. The layout of the blog has various applications which is garnished with graphic/textual icons.
-The content of which, explicit how cool their sidebars and graphical interface looks like, besides the mediocrity of one's life. Which by the way, no one is interested in your life. You just had to come up with something interesting to type in that little box.
I applaud your effort of spending hours and hours to make your blog look more flashy.
I know it's your blog and you can write anything you like and continue to degrade your mind for that matter. Maybe i've said things that you don't like to hear.Typicals tend to disagree at the drop of a hat at the opinion they don't agree with; without rational consideration or exercising the ability to reason. At least i had the balls to say it straight at your face.
We're facing greater threats than our forefathers have faced: Oppressions and foreign rule or the penjajah. In today's world, we face even greater threats: Ignorance, stupidipty and knowledge deficiency. It is up to you to shape your future.
What's your choice?
-Contentless and graphical interfaced blogs. The layout of the blog has various applications which is garnished with graphic/textual icons.
-The content of which, explicit how cool their sidebars and graphical interface looks like, besides the mediocrity of one's life. Which by the way, no one is interested in your life. You just had to come up with something interesting to type in that little box.
I applaud your effort of spending hours and hours to make your blog look more flashy.
I know it's your blog and you can write anything you like and continue to degrade your mind for that matter. Maybe i've said things that you don't like to hear.Typicals tend to disagree at the drop of a hat at the opinion they don't agree with; without rational consideration or exercising the ability to reason. At least i had the balls to say it straight at your face.
We're facing greater threats than our forefathers have faced: Oppressions and foreign rule or the penjajah. In today's world, we face even greater threats: Ignorance, stupidipty and knowledge deficiency. It is up to you to shape your future.
What's your choice?
Saturday, April 23, 2005
The Apple Tree
One might ask, " Why would you need so many seeds to grow just a few more apple trees? "
Take a look at an apple tree. There might be five hundred apples on the tree, but each apple has just ten seeds.
Nature has something to teach us here. It's telling us: "Not all seeds grow. In life, most seeds never grow. So if you really want to make something happen, you had better try more than once." Laws of nature does not take things personally nor should we take them personally.
We just need to understand and work with them.
This might mean:
You'll talk to 50 people to sell one house, one car, one vacuum cleaner, one insurance policy, or a business idea. You'll have more love-making sessions to get pregnant. You'll attend 20 interviews to get one job. You'll interview 40 people to find one good employee.
And you might meet a hundred acquaintances just to find one special friend.
Just gaze upon the apple tree.
When we understand the " Law of the Seed ", we don't get so disappointed. We stop feeling like victims. We learn how to deal with things that happen to us.
Application:
Successful people fail often. But they plant more seeds. Daring to try and fail.
*****
When things are beyond your control, here's something that you must not do so as to be happy:
You must not make rules for how everyone SHOULD behave. You must not decide how you think the world SHOULD be. Many times, such thoughts can bring you spiralling down into more unhappiness.
On the other hand, let's say you expect that:
Friends and acquaintances SHOULD return favours.
Co-workers/employers SHOULD appreciate you.
Buses/Trains/Planes SHOULD arrive on time.
Your husband/wife SHOULD remember your birthday.
Everyone SHOULD be honest/nice/polite.
These expectations may sound reasonable. But often, these things won't happen. So you end up frustrated and disappointed.There's a better strategy. Demand less, and instead, have preferences.For things that are beyond your control, tell yourself:
" I would prefer 'A' , but if 'B' happens, it's okay. "
You prefer that people are polite but when they are rude, it doesn't ruin your day.
You prefer sunshine, but if it rains, it is ok too!
To become happier, we need to:
a) Change our attitude.
b) Change our thinking.
It is easier to change our attitude/thinking than applying change in others and people in the world. As cliché as it goes : For the world to change, you must change first.
Application:
It is not the problem that is the issue, but rather it is your attitude attending to the problem that is the problem.
It's not what happens to you that determine your happiness but rather how you think about what happens to you.
Take a look at an apple tree. There might be five hundred apples on the tree, but each apple has just ten seeds.
Nature has something to teach us here. It's telling us: "Not all seeds grow. In life, most seeds never grow. So if you really want to make something happen, you had better try more than once." Laws of nature does not take things personally nor should we take them personally.
We just need to understand and work with them.
This might mean:
You'll talk to 50 people to sell one house, one car, one vacuum cleaner, one insurance policy, or a business idea. You'll have more love-making sessions to get pregnant. You'll attend 20 interviews to get one job. You'll interview 40 people to find one good employee.
And you might meet a hundred acquaintances just to find one special friend.
Just gaze upon the apple tree.
When we understand the " Law of the Seed ", we don't get so disappointed. We stop feeling like victims. We learn how to deal with things that happen to us.
Application:
Successful people fail often. But they plant more seeds. Daring to try and fail.
*****
When things are beyond your control, here's something that you must not do so as to be happy:
You must not make rules for how everyone SHOULD behave. You must not decide how you think the world SHOULD be. Many times, such thoughts can bring you spiralling down into more unhappiness.
On the other hand, let's say you expect that:
Friends and acquaintances SHOULD return favours.
Co-workers/employers SHOULD appreciate you.
Buses/Trains/Planes SHOULD arrive on time.
Your husband/wife SHOULD remember your birthday.
Everyone SHOULD be honest/nice/polite.
These expectations may sound reasonable. But often, these things won't happen. So you end up frustrated and disappointed.There's a better strategy. Demand less, and instead, have preferences.For things that are beyond your control, tell yourself:
" I would prefer 'A' , but if 'B' happens, it's okay. "
You prefer that people are polite but when they are rude, it doesn't ruin your day.
You prefer sunshine, but if it rains, it is ok too!
To become happier, we need to:
a) Change our attitude.
b) Change our thinking.
It is easier to change our attitude/thinking than applying change in others and people in the world. As cliché as it goes : For the world to change, you must change first.
Application:
It is not the problem that is the issue, but rather it is your attitude attending to the problem that is the problem.
It's not what happens to you that determine your happiness but rather how you think about what happens to you.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Flashback
The year is 1993, i was in my school yard doing gardening with Christopher, then all of a sudden,
i said : " Déjà Vu ! "
He said : " 你讲什么? (What did you say?) "
" Déjà Vu ! Déjà Vu ! " and i started explaining what it meant. " I've seen this scene before!"
I continued explaining into more detail. It happens when you experience the exact same thing all over again except you never experienced it before.
He gave me the 'HUH?' look with substantially large amount of puzzle ness.
About a year later, i tried explaining causality-The relationship between cause and effect, clairvoyance and the possibility of parallel universe to my peers. I had a reasonable good command in my language, i'm very fluent in the languages i know and i didn't had a problem getting my points across. People didn't understand what was i saying then.
Ever since then, whatever i said was never understood and my opinion didn't really matter to anyone. I kept quiet and held the thoughts to myself. I became passive. Indulging in pep talks and trivialities so i could fit in the crowd. I talked things that is commonly known today as "bullshit". While i was always in deep thought, i acted mute, often not taking heed in nonsense they came about.Only occasionally entertaining my friends with a mere smirk.
Dead fish follow the flow ,they say. And the wise remains wise until spoken.
Eventually i got out of that teenage angst of mine.
Today, while having dinner at a diner with a friend, i asked her a question.
" Why is the sky blue? I figured an 19 year old like you would know."
" Because of the reflection of the ocean. "
" How could that be possible?" *smirks*
" It's because of full inner reflection " she blatantly pointed out with gestures.
" Sometimes the sky is orange or red , have you ever seen a red or orange ocean?"
She seems to ponder at this.
" My science teacher says it's because of reflection of the ocean!" *still holds strongly to it*
Oh my God !!! Glass shattered, time stopped at that instant, even a cat pooped onto the floor-dead. Sorry i was exaggerating.
Supressing a laughter, i said: " What a !@#$%* dumb science teacher! "
My brief explanation:
The blue color of the sky is due to Rayleigh scattering. As light moves through the atmosphere, most of the longer wavelengths pass straight through. Much of the shorter wavelength light is absorbed by the atmospheric gases. The gase molecules gets scattered all around the sky.Since you see the blue light from everywhere overhead, the sky looks blue.
Nothing has changed, the sky is still blue; people are still dumb.
If you feel offended by this article, you're dumb.
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Read also :
Surroundings
Pink Piggie Bank
i said : " Déjà Vu ! "
He said : " 你讲什么? (What did you say?) "
" Déjà Vu ! Déjà Vu ! " and i started explaining what it meant. " I've seen this scene before!"
I continued explaining into more detail. It happens when you experience the exact same thing all over again except you never experienced it before.
He gave me the 'HUH?' look with substantially large amount of puzzle ness.
About a year later, i tried explaining causality-The relationship between cause and effect, clairvoyance and the possibility of parallel universe to my peers. I had a reasonable good command in my language, i'm very fluent in the languages i know and i didn't had a problem getting my points across. People didn't understand what was i saying then.
Ever since then, whatever i said was never understood and my opinion didn't really matter to anyone. I kept quiet and held the thoughts to myself. I became passive. Indulging in pep talks and trivialities so i could fit in the crowd. I talked things that is commonly known today as "bullshit". While i was always in deep thought, i acted mute, often not taking heed in nonsense they came about.Only occasionally entertaining my friends with a mere smirk.
Dead fish follow the flow ,they say. And the wise remains wise until spoken.
Eventually i got out of that teenage angst of mine.
Today, while having dinner at a diner with a friend, i asked her a question.
" Why is the sky blue? I figured an 19 year old like you would know."
" Because of the reflection of the ocean. "
" How could that be possible?" *smirks*
" It's because of full inner reflection " she blatantly pointed out with gestures.
" Sometimes the sky is orange or red , have you ever seen a red or orange ocean?"
She seems to ponder at this.
" My science teacher says it's because of reflection of the ocean!" *still holds strongly to it*
Oh my God !!! Glass shattered, time stopped at that instant, even a cat pooped onto the floor-dead. Sorry i was exaggerating.
Supressing a laughter, i said: " What a !@#$%* dumb science teacher! "
My brief explanation:
The blue color of the sky is due to Rayleigh scattering. As light moves through the atmosphere, most of the longer wavelengths pass straight through. Much of the shorter wavelength light is absorbed by the atmospheric gases. The gase molecules gets scattered all around the sky.Since you see the blue light from everywhere overhead, the sky looks blue.
Nothing has changed, the sky is still blue; people are still dumb.
If you feel offended by this article, you're dumb.
-----
Read also :
Surroundings
Pink Piggie Bank
Taekwondo
I enjoy martial arts, one of which is Taekwondo.
In Taekwondo there are a few mainstreams, the popular ones would be :
World Taekwondo Federation (WTF) and International Taekwondo Federation (ITF)
Currently i'm associated with WTF after coming to university.I was converted from ITF.
I achieved my black belt 1st Dan in ITF.
Just a little insight
In WTF, when someone attempts a kick at you, parry or avoid the attack.
In ITF , when someone attempts a kick at you , block or punch the attacker's leg.
I've observed that WTF is sports based and ITF is martial-art based.
Who is mightier in taekwondo? WTF or ITF ?
Of course it's ITF.
Why? cos' ITF are initials for " I'm The Fucker ".
WTF enthusiasts : " What The Fuck?!? "
In Taekwondo there are a few mainstreams, the popular ones would be :
World Taekwondo Federation (WTF) and International Taekwondo Federation (ITF)
Currently i'm associated with WTF after coming to university.I was converted from ITF.
I achieved my black belt 1st Dan in ITF.
Just a little insight
In WTF, when someone attempts a kick at you, parry or avoid the attack.
In ITF , when someone attempts a kick at you , block or punch the attacker's leg.
I've observed that WTF is sports based and ITF is martial-art based.
Who is mightier in taekwondo? WTF or ITF ?
Of course it's ITF.
Why? cos' ITF are initials for " I'm The Fucker ".
WTF enthusiasts : " What The Fuck?!? "
Friday, April 15, 2005
Sand Castle in the Sky
Long ago, when i was 7 years old. I had a dream.
I dreamed that i owned a sand castle in the sky. Everyone from around the globe flocked to the castle to take a glimpse.
I realized that any individual/organisation that throned of any industry; real estates, computers, energy, investments, are the top people/companies of the world.
What if we can make something(tourism) to attract the whole world's attention, won't it generate profits, create revenues for the nation? The Italian government raked in sums of cash from the thousands of people that rallied to attend the Pope's funeral.
Anyway, i've always believed in human resource, that's why i chose engineering; since i'm going off into a business venture in the near future. I get both sides of the coin, the business world and the science world. That's a good volume of people. The downside of things is that you'll meet the crushing wave someday and it's up to you to challenge it. In almost everything you do, there's the crushing wave, but that doesn't happen in the sky right? If we succeed in overcoming it, the kingdom in the clouds shall thrall, else swept away from existence.
Anyway, i guess it's back to 'Paris hotel fire kills 15 people' or 'Bush signs bankruptcy bill' for journalists around the world.
The typical, mundane articles you see in your local newspapers everyday.
I dreamed that i owned a sand castle in the sky. Everyone from around the globe flocked to the castle to take a glimpse.
I realized that any individual/organisation that throned of any industry; real estates, computers, energy, investments, are the top people/companies of the world.
What if we can make something(tourism) to attract the whole world's attention, won't it generate profits, create revenues for the nation? The Italian government raked in sums of cash from the thousands of people that rallied to attend the Pope's funeral.
Anyway, i've always believed in human resource, that's why i chose engineering; since i'm going off into a business venture in the near future. I get both sides of the coin, the business world and the science world. That's a good volume of people. The downside of things is that you'll meet the crushing wave someday and it's up to you to challenge it. In almost everything you do, there's the crushing wave, but that doesn't happen in the sky right? If we succeed in overcoming it, the kingdom in the clouds shall thrall, else swept away from existence.
Anyway, i guess it's back to 'Paris hotel fire kills 15 people' or 'Bush signs bankruptcy bill' for journalists around the world.
The typical, mundane articles you see in your local newspapers everyday.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
One Step Closer
I've always believed that it's never too late to learn things.
Learning in some people is often associated with pride and self.
My gay high school principal once said : " I'm too old to learn driving, what will the driving school say? "
What's there to be ashamed about? It's always a good thing to learn up new things that will enrich your life. Be multi-directional and open, you'll need it for future preferences; in business, in that dream career,even in development of your interpersonal skills. Explore depths and uncharted lands i'll say. Follow your impulse. Persue those that your heart tells you, chase that wild dream, go after that whisper of a thrill.
Too old you say?
Colonel Harland Sanders, born September 9, 1890, actively began franchising his chicken business at the age of 65.Seeing the end of his business in 1950's ,when a highway was planned to bypass the town where he ran his operations. He persevered and continue his secret recipe.You know the rest, how that piece of deep fried chicken skin got to you and added inches to that waist line. And it all began with a 65-year-old gentleman who used his $105 Social Security check to start a business.
Thats 'finger lickin' good for you.
I learn to ride a bicycle when i was 19 years old. Go ahead laugh.I wasn't blessed with opportunities.I wasn't presented with opportunities like learning the piano or music which some whine pathetically saying it's the endurement of hardship of the highest degree.
I'll say this, it was one of my humblest moments of my life.
Going to a nearby field in my neighbourhood (Tmn.Kerjasama) ,trying to learn to ride that crummy old steel frame, getting laughed by kids half my age, watching me fall of a bike that i borrow from a friend which also laughed at me for learning to ride at this age. And being greeted at the field by kids every weekend in anticipation to watch me crumble to the ground. I was depressed, like a trophy display of bruises.
And for the sake of dramatization, i shall use to word 'despair' to depict my undertakings.It ain't easy learning in such conditions. There were times where i wanted to pick off the kid from his feet and sock him in the jaw. Of course i didn't, it's just those things that you imagine in your mind.
But it's all worth it. It's accomplished.
I've learned a few lessons:
1. Always be enthusiastic and optismistic.
2. Seize it, the world is yours for the taking and make opportunities.
3. If there's a couple of kids sniggering at you, ask them to fuck off.
Lately i've been busy with Adobe Photoshop CS and a little C programming.
Learning up guitar tabs as well.
Shall brush up on it during the holidays.Would like to be fully proficient at it.
Disregarding the negative remarks and lack of support my friends show.
So what's so uptight about learning? It's not like you have a leaked pad stuck between your thighs and you had to walk a mile.
Learning in some people is often associated with pride and self.
My gay high school principal once said : " I'm too old to learn driving, what will the driving school say? "
What's there to be ashamed about? It's always a good thing to learn up new things that will enrich your life. Be multi-directional and open, you'll need it for future preferences; in business, in that dream career,even in development of your interpersonal skills. Explore depths and uncharted lands i'll say. Follow your impulse. Persue those that your heart tells you, chase that wild dream, go after that whisper of a thrill.
Too old you say?
Colonel Harland Sanders, born September 9, 1890, actively began franchising his chicken business at the age of 65.Seeing the end of his business in 1950's ,when a highway was planned to bypass the town where he ran his operations. He persevered and continue his secret recipe.You know the rest, how that piece of deep fried chicken skin got to you and added inches to that waist line. And it all began with a 65-year-old gentleman who used his $105 Social Security check to start a business.
Thats 'finger lickin' good for you.
I learn to ride a bicycle when i was 19 years old. Go ahead laugh.I wasn't blessed with opportunities.I wasn't presented with opportunities like learning the piano or music which some whine pathetically saying it's the endurement of hardship of the highest degree.
I'll say this, it was one of my humblest moments of my life.
Going to a nearby field in my neighbourhood (Tmn.Kerjasama) ,trying to learn to ride that crummy old steel frame, getting laughed by kids half my age, watching me fall of a bike that i borrow from a friend which also laughed at me for learning to ride at this age. And being greeted at the field by kids every weekend in anticipation to watch me crumble to the ground. I was depressed, like a trophy display of bruises.
And for the sake of dramatization, i shall use to word 'despair' to depict my undertakings.It ain't easy learning in such conditions. There were times where i wanted to pick off the kid from his feet and sock him in the jaw. Of course i didn't, it's just those things that you imagine in your mind.
But it's all worth it. It's accomplished.
I've learned a few lessons:
1. Always be enthusiastic and optismistic.
2. Seize it, the world is yours for the taking and make opportunities.
3. If there's a couple of kids sniggering at you, ask them to fuck off.
Lately i've been busy with Adobe Photoshop CS and a little C programming.
Learning up guitar tabs as well.
Shall brush up on it during the holidays.Would like to be fully proficient at it.
Disregarding the negative remarks and lack of support my friends show.
So what's so uptight about learning? It's not like you have a leaked pad stuck between your thighs and you had to walk a mile.
Holiday Plans
I'll be off for holidays.
Camp details:
DATE : 18th - 21st April 2005 (Monday - Thursday) 4D3N
VENUE : CCC, Batu Feringgi, Penang
Cyberjaya/KL details:
DATE : 24th April 2005 (Sunday)
Homecoming details:
DATE : 29th April 2005 (Friday)
TIME : 3.15pm
*Happy holidays to my MMU mates' .*
Camp details:
DATE : 18th - 21st April 2005 (Monday - Thursday) 4D3N
VENUE : CCC, Batu Feringgi, Penang
Cyberjaya/KL details:
DATE : 24th April 2005 (Sunday)
Homecoming details:
DATE : 29th April 2005 (Friday)
TIME : 3.15pm
*Happy holidays to my MMU mates' .*
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Yahoo!
You have no idea how much you can learn about your friends' daily lives just by reading their Yahoo! status messages.
Anything from having exams to missing their lil' stuffed animals to whining about daily trivialities. It's all there.
Speaking of instant messaging, i might just be a 37 year old pedophilic man with two daughters, placing a picture of a 20 year old young man, lurking behind an internet identity.
On the other hand, i could just be female, a women behind the identities of "men" that prefers not to be identified as women because of the irritating minority of socially inept males who think that anyone with a female name wants to become romantically involved with them.
Then again, i might just be a 20+ perv male acting out a fantasy of being a sexy ,kittenish female teen that doesn't work in front of the mirror.
Anything from having exams to missing their lil' stuffed animals to whining about daily trivialities. It's all there.
Speaking of instant messaging, i might just be a 37 year old pedophilic man with two daughters, placing a picture of a 20 year old young man, lurking behind an internet identity.
On the other hand, i could just be female, a women behind the identities of "men" that prefers not to be identified as women because of the irritating minority of socially inept males who think that anyone with a female name wants to become romantically involved with them.
Then again, i might just be a 20+ perv male acting out a fantasy of being a sexy ,kittenish female teen that doesn't work in front of the mirror.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Dance of the Rain Fairy
If I were the rain , I would bind the sky and the earth, whom in all eternity will never unite.
Towering from heavens to ground below
Into my hands silver tears of sky
Raindrops fall on me
Gentle cries sprinkles my thoughts to peace
Of endless random tapping water beads
Raindrops fall on me
Svelte rain drops batters like falling crystals
Giving applause to my freezing grief
Raindrops fall on me
It's been a week since it rained like this. Pluie often left me with a feeling of loneliness.
She always reminded me of my heart as she murmurs my name and bids me adieu.
Fleeting off knowing that you'll come back one day. Pluie, goodbye.
Just like the rain, would I be able to bind two hearts together?
Towering from heavens to ground below
Into my hands silver tears of sky
Raindrops fall on me
Gentle cries sprinkles my thoughts to peace
Of endless random tapping water beads
Raindrops fall on me
Svelte rain drops batters like falling crystals
Giving applause to my freezing grief
Raindrops fall on me
It's been a week since it rained like this. Pluie often left me with a feeling of loneliness.
She always reminded me of my heart as she murmurs my name and bids me adieu.
Fleeting off knowing that you'll come back one day. Pluie, goodbye.
Just like the rain, would I be able to bind two hearts together?
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Dodo
Why do people hang on to dear life while others just let it slip?
Irony.
Man in India leaps into train tracks when train is just inches from him to save a rotten shoe which he kicks off his feet.
Equals to
Dodo bird(The Ice Age) attempts to save a melon ,plunges along with the melon into a boiling tar pit.
Some people lives their life merely of the lack of reasons to die. Maybe we're just like that pre-historic chipmunk with the fluffy tail chasing after an acorn. Just like how we chase after a dream, ending up becoming 'maggot combo meal' or 'bacterial orgy feast' 35 years later.
Life goes on exactly as planned, we go to school get good grades. Earn a scholarship, then get out into the working world, work out a success plan in mind. We won't get cancer or be like the 5634 people that died in road accidents(2003).
Those are for losers and society's misfits. It won't happen to us, we have a plan. But WE are differrent. We will continue without a doubt and neglect our families, cause that ounce of success will compensate the hours not spent with family and friends.
We have the characteristics to succeed.We got what it takes to met new challenges and will grow old to tell our grandchildren of our success stories.
We're heading for the victorious horizon!
We're going to face extinction
Irony.
Man in India leaps into train tracks when train is just inches from him to save a rotten shoe which he kicks off his feet.
Equals to
Dodo bird(The Ice Age) attempts to save a melon ,plunges along with the melon into a boiling tar pit.
Some people lives their life merely of the lack of reasons to die. Maybe we're just like that pre-historic chipmunk with the fluffy tail chasing after an acorn. Just like how we chase after a dream, ending up becoming 'maggot combo meal' or 'bacterial orgy feast' 35 years later.
Life goes on exactly as planned, we go to school get good grades. Earn a scholarship, then get out into the working world, work out a success plan in mind. We won't get cancer or be like the 5634 people that died in road accidents(2003).
Those are for losers and society's misfits. It won't happen to us, we have a plan. But WE are differrent. We will continue without a doubt and neglect our families, cause that ounce of success will compensate the hours not spent with family and friends.
We have the characteristics to succeed.We got what it takes to met new challenges and will grow old to tell our grandchildren of our success stories.
We're heading for the victorious horizon!
We're going to face extinction
Dating Tips
"There are three possible parts to a date, of which at least two must be offered:
Entertainment, food, and affection. It is customary to begin a series of dates with a great deal of entertainment, a moderate amount of food, and the merest suggestion of affection.
As the amount of affection increases, the entertainment can be reduced proportionately.
When the affection is the entertainment, we no longer call it dating. Under no circumstances can the food be omitted."
—Miss Manners' Guide to Excruciatingly Correct Behaviour
Entertainment, food, and affection. It is customary to begin a series of dates with a great deal of entertainment, a moderate amount of food, and the merest suggestion of affection.
As the amount of affection increases, the entertainment can be reduced proportionately.
When the affection is the entertainment, we no longer call it dating. Under no circumstances can the food be omitted."
—Miss Manners' Guide to Excruciatingly Correct Behaviour
Mommy, i wanna use my preferred sex washroom
I've been asked to write more provocative or controversional thoughts.Fuzbu suggests that i should expand and explore different writing scopes.
There's no right and wrong(nihilist). It's about what i think and what you think
(which by the way, doesn't really matter)
A slippery slope is a condition created by a culture that accepts no absolute values:
Everything is a matter of opinion. For example, consider the following.
Choose the statement that best reflects your opinion:
THE TEN COMMANDMENTS(heh)
1. I think same-sex marriages should be legal, but I don't really think they should adopt children.
2. I think homosexual behaviour should be legal, but I don't really think they should do homosexual acts in public.
3. I think homosexuals should be able to do what they want where they want, but I think homosexual unions should be illegal.
4. I think homosexual unions should be legal but I don't really think they should marry.
5. I think homosexuality is a deviant behaviour. People who engage in homosexual acts should be helped to overcome those tendencies.
6. I think same-sex marriages should be able to adopt children, but I don't really think they should indoctrinate them about their lifestyle.
7. I think homosexual couples should be able to teach their children what their values are, but I don't really think they should have sex with them.
8. I think man-boy sex should be legal if condoms are used, but I don't really think they should have sex without condoms.
9. I think man-boy sex should be legal if the child is consenting, but I don't really think they should rape or abuse them against their will.
10. I think what goes on in the bedrooms of the nation is none of the government business.
Some people choose to go along with even the most preposterous of these statements.
Most of the times these are suggested by the media and by the 'Progressive' mentality that excludes the concept of right and wrong, but discovered a new virtue:
"The virtue of the middle ground "
There's no right and wrong(nihilist). It's about what i think and what you think
(which by the way, doesn't really matter)
Friday, April 01, 2005
Teruterubouzu
Teruterubouzu are the little ghost-figures that you see sometimes, hanging in windows.
They’re sun-charms and children make them for the Tanabata festival,because part of the legend is that if it rains the river will be too wide for the birds to bridge and the heavenly lovers will be unable to meet.
Rain, as it is symbolize as tears. A broken heart and sad passing. I recalled when my friends went through these times, often i offer these rain wards as supportive emblems in poignant and heartrending moments.
I remembered making one out of paper in a café.
They’re sun-charms and children make them for the Tanabata festival,because part of the legend is that if it rains the river will be too wide for the birds to bridge and the heavenly lovers will be unable to meet.
Rain, as it is symbolize as tears. A broken heart and sad passing. I recalled when my friends went through these times, often i offer these rain wards as supportive emblems in poignant and heartrending moments.
I remembered making one out of paper in a café.
Acid Pour Test
In conjunction with April Fool's Day, here's today's special entry:
Let's say you marry your current girlfriend.
You blatantly say you'll be loyal and faithful to her.
That you love her for everything she is.
Subject: Yes, you've guessed it, your current girlfriend/wife.
Test #1: Acid Pour Test.
Happily coupled/married for two years.
One day, your girlfriend/wife comes back home with acid poured over her face.
Q & A session :
Will you still love her?
"Erm...yes i do."
How do you publically show your affection?
(I'll avoid her in public like she's some kind of disease)
*Fakes a plastic grin*
" I'll love her for EVERYTHING she is ."
We know, all men lie.Just spare us from feeling guilty for no reason.
Test #2: The Past.
Happily coupled/married for two years.
Wife: I had sex with all my previous boyfriends.
Husband: All 3 of them?
Wife: 14 to be precise.
Husband: Well i thought we should be truthful to each other.
Wife: It's the past, besides you haven't met me then.
*snuggles up to husband*
Husband: You've said that we had the best sex together.
Wife: Well i say that to everyone, besides Vincent was so much better.
Husband: ....
Wife: Not to mention Mr. Ivans at the bar.
No man survives these tests. Alright... i was generalizing.There are exceptions.
Your boyfriend is exceptional right?
Let's say you marry your current girlfriend.
You blatantly say you'll be loyal and faithful to her.
That you love her for everything she is.
Subject: Yes, you've guessed it, your current girlfriend/wife.
Test #1: Acid Pour Test.
Happily coupled/married for two years.
One day, your girlfriend/wife comes back home with acid poured over her face.
Q & A session :
Will you still love her?
"Erm...yes i do."
How do you publically show your affection?
(I'll avoid her in public like she's some kind of disease)
*Fakes a plastic grin*
" I'll love her for EVERYTHING she is ."
We know, all men lie.Just spare us from feeling guilty for no reason.
Test #2: The Past.
Happily coupled/married for two years.
Wife: I had sex with all my previous boyfriends.
Husband: All 3 of them?
Wife: 14 to be precise.
Husband: Well i thought we should be truthful to each other.
Wife: It's the past, besides you haven't met me then.
*snuggles up to husband*
Husband: You've said that we had the best sex together.
Wife: Well i say that to everyone, besides Vincent was so much better.
Husband: ....
Wife: Not to mention Mr. Ivans at the bar.
No man survives these tests. Alright... i was generalizing.There are exceptions.
Your boyfriend is exceptional right?
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